I am a little disappointed as slowly day by day I am starting to realize the truth. I knew I had to face it someday and it seems like that day isn't far off now. You did not tell me, but I just know it. I said to you that I don't know anything. I lied. I know that I am gonna miss you. I know that you are gonna miss me too. I know things will never be the same between us. I know whatever that did not happen was never supposed to happen at all. I know that this is just a hopeless trial and I am gonna lose it.
But no matter what, it cannot stop me from writing here on this page where you will never ever reach. And even if you find this page out sometime in future, it won't have any significance. I still won't stop me for wishing for a fairy tale. As I mentioned previously also, I know that this relationship won't work and I am just trying to take in every moment of it and I am trying to lose myself in those moments.
You sometimes feel that I take you for granted. I will never know how much you mean to me and probably no one takes you so seriously as me. I will not write about specific instances because there is no one I want to prove my innocence. If you don't feel it, then it doesn't matter if the whole world knows about it or not. I may have fallen short of your expectations sometimes, but I have my boundaries too. I always tend to bend them for you but still all I hear at the end is that I take you for granted. The thing that hurts the most is that when you are accused of something you never committed, knowingly. What we say, doesn't matter. What matters is how we make them feel. Beyond that, no act of convincing or argument can help you. People will forget what you say to them, but they will always remember how you made them feel. I may not deserver you love, but I really need it!!!
Sparks Fly
Songwriters: Swift, Taylor Alison;
The way you move is like a full on rainstorm
And I'm a house of cards
You’re the kind of reckless that should send me running
But I kinda know that I won’t get far
And you stood there in front of me
Just close enough to touch
Close enough to hope you couldn't see
What I was thinking of
Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
Cause' I see sparks fly whenever you smile
Get me with those green eyes, baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile
My mind forgets to remind me you’re a bad idea
You touch me once and it’s really something
You find I’m even better than you imagined I would be
I’m on my guard for the rest of the world
But with you I know it’s no good
And I could wait patiently but I really wish you would
Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile
Get me with those green eyes, baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile
I run my fingers through your hair
And watch the lights go wild
Just keep on keeping your eyes on me
It’s just strong enough to make it feel right
And lead me up the staircase
Won't you whisper soft and slow
I’m captivated by you baby
Like a fireworks show
Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile
Get me with those green eyes, baby
As the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
Cause I see, sparks fly whenever you smile
Yeah, my mind forgets to remind me that I am not gonna have you this time. And everytime I talk to you, I forget all of it. I can see is you. All I can admire is you, ignoring the fact about the future. And everytime we part, I come back to this same page, listen to another song, try to find my story in that song and then write it here. I know the story is the same in all the posts, but words are different. The feelings are the same, but the way to express those feelings differ. I am the same, but you differ.. Probably it should be the other way round... You are the same, but I differ. Regret that.
