I wish I could play guitar then this song would probably made more sense. It's so funny that when we look back at our past and think about the times we laughed, it makes us cry. And when we look back at the times when we cried, it makes us laugh because now we feel that we weren't mature enough to handle that situation. Maybe I will think about this night after 5 years and I'll smile at my own blog. This circle of smiling and crying will continue until I die. Memories of loss that can never be healed up. I guess we have to learn how to cope with different situations in different ways. I have faith in my future that some day it will make me forget all my past and all there will be left is the present. You just know some things, without any proof or reasoning. I feel like crying, but this fact in itself is making me smile. I really don't know whether I should cry of smile. People walk in to your life, teach you so many things and then when you are used to them, one day you realize they are gone. They are no more with you. They are not with you anymore to share your happy moments. When you cry, they are no more there to comfort you by trying all the tricks in this world to make you smile. All you have with you is your guitar and your teardrops that keep falling on it whenever you play any song that reminds you something from your past. These memories surface so many emotions that it is hard to express them in words. I heard somewhere that feelings that can be expressed in words are no feelings at all.
Teardrops On My Guitar lyrics
Songwriters: Rose, Liz; Swift, Taylor Alison;
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without
Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight
'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see.
We can never replace the people in our lives that we love. And the irony of love is that of all the friends I have left with me, they'll believe I loved as best as I could, even when I couldn't believe I could love at all. After this loss, I know I'm not REALLY lost. It just feels that way. But as Robert Frost said "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on."
Yes so my life will go on. Don't know why god has chosen me for such painful life. Maybe others were not strong enough to handle this. Neither am I. And miles to go before I sleep.
