Jump Then Fall

I had thought of a lot of other things to write in this post, but right now at this point, I decided what I want to write and publish tonight. 

So I realized recently that I should have written about some of the good things that have happened to me and what I have learned from them. Yeah ok you made me realize, I did not realize it myself. So what, you are mine too. You telling me something or making me realize something is just nothing more than a part of me telling my brain what to do. So here it is.... Too philosophical?

I learned that money is the most useless thing in lyf when it comes to happiness. Most people may disagree with me, but that what you taught me and I think it makes a lot of sense. Money is just one of the material things, which will always lead you into to painful phases of lyf. So never to give any attention or focus to money when we are with someone for whom we care about. 

I learned that there is no need to lie to anyone. Though we should follow "Don't ask, don't tell policy". Not everyone needs to know what you are doing and what you plan to do. But whatever you do, don't lie. Tell people straight on their face that you don't want to share the details. It's absolutely OK rather than hiding and lying to a dozen people. I may not have been following that to the core, because I am not the person who can say "No" to anyone's face. But yes, I think I am improving day by day. 

I learned that our family is the most integral part of our lyf. To that point, I think the biggest regret I will ever have is that I have spent more time with my friends than with my family. 

I learned that no matter how much you hate people, you must still help them when they are in need and they cry out to you for help. People will be shameless, but there has to be a difference between them and you. So we must decide to help if we can

I learned that our relationship is without commitment. Our relationship is so different that I just can't put it in words and as I have written so many times in this blog, it's probably best not to even try to categorize our relationship. People will be making us drunk to bad, and then try to ask so many questions, thinking we will blurt out everything. But they will never succeed. 

I learned that it's sometimes OK to go backwards to move forward in lyf. You may realize they you need to let them go who were your past and move forward. 

I learned what it means to get lost in your hurt. I can never and will never try to measure the pain you have been through, but I know its been enough and I would not have been able to handle so much in my lyf.

I've learned that you must protect and sacrifice for some special people in your lyf who mean much more to you than anything else. Even if that means taking on more pain, more hurt for them, but still facing it with smiling lips. 

I learned that its OK to cut yourself lose on special occasions. It's OK to cross the boundaries sometimes. Sometimes even the toughest concrete can fall down

I learned when to put your feelings into words. When to find that perfect time to say out things that you have never said earlier.

I learned how to be calm, cool and mature and not get carried away in that moment of anger and be in control of the situation. People will always be mean, they will always do everything you can't even think of. Not sure what intention people will have with me, but still, in any circumstances, to be myself is the key. Doesn't matter how much drunk I am.

Jump Then Fall

Songwriters: Swift, Taylor Alison;

I like the way you sound in the morning

We're on the phone and without a warning

I realize your laugh is the best sound

I have ever heard

I like the way I can't keep my focus

I watch you talk, you didn't notice

I hear the words but all I can think is

We should be together

Every time you smile, I smile

And every time you shine, I'll shine for you

Whoa oh, I'm feeling you baby

Don't be afraid to

Jump then fall

Jump then fall into me

Be there, never gonna leave you

Say that you wanna be with me too

So I'm a stay through it all

So jump then fall

I like the way your hair falls in your face

You got the keys to me

I love each freckle on your face, oh

I've never been so wrapped up, honey

I like the way you're everything I ever wanted

I had time to think it oh, over

And all I can say is come closer

Take a deep breath then jump then fall into me

Cause Every time you smile, I smile

And every time you shine, I'll shine for you

Whoa oh, I'm feeling you baby

Don't be afraid to

Jump then fall

Jump then fall into me

Be there, never gonna leave you

Say that you wanna be with me too

So I'm a stay through it all

So jump then fall

The bottom's gonna drop out from under our feet

I'll catch you, I'll catch you

And people say things that bring you to your knees

I'll catch you

The time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cry

But I'll hold you through the night until you smile

Whoa oh, I need you baby

Don't be afraid, please

Jump then fall

Jump then fall into me

Be there, never gonna leave you

Say that you wanna be with me too

So I'm a stay through it all

So jump then fall

Jump then fall baby

Jump then fall into me, into me

Every time you smile, I smile

And every time you shine, I shine

And every time you're here

Baby I'll show you, I'll show you

You can Jump then fall, jump then fall

Jump then fall into me, into me, yeah

I never knew sunset could be so lovely that I would try to stop the time then and there so that the sun would never set and I would never have to go back in the morning. The previous weekend was the best weekend I would have seen. I will always cherish its memories throughout my lyf. I will however confess that the last 2 days have been so depressing that I am not yet able to accept our decision for not getting together on the coming weekend. I know none of us have made any commitments to each other. Its not a blame I am putting on you. I don't know under what circumstances we decided to drop the plan. I couldn't have been more serious about it when I said "I am not done meeting you yet. So we are meeting next weekend". 

Was that a ray of hope that I saw this morning? I am not too sure about it. It's like when you go deep inside a tunnel and you close your eyes and turn around a couple of times, then you see light at both the ends of the tunnel. At one end, is the mistake you are trying to avoid and at the other end, its the ray of hope. So I need some guidance from you. Who else can I talk to? Who else can I depend upon? Who else will even try to understand me. 

If you want to set me free, then there's one simple way out, kill me. I ain't gonna throw you out of my mind. It's not gonna happen in this lyf. Maybe I can try in the next.

This post is not yet complete, but still I am making it available on the blog site. It may be updated tomorrow.

Update: I have decided that the remaining part will come in the next post itself.