I had a dream. Yeah we all do have dreams but sometimes dreams mean a lot more to us than reality. It may be because of our real life failures or maybe because of our extra ordinary achievements that we have in our dreams. I am not sure which case I belong to. My dreams too meant a lot to me. Or maybe its like this, if you don't get something you want in your real life, you somehow get the power to manifest our own dreams and think of that as the reality. One such story I had in which I was with the one who mattered (read as matters) to me the most. But with every new begining of the day, its a sad ending to a new dream. Everyday a battle is lost, but what matters is not whether I win or lose a battle, but how beautifully (not bravely) I face it.
When I was a kid, I read a this quote from Paul Coelho - "When you know what you want the whole world conspires you to achieve it". And I didnt know the meaning of it, but truly wanted to believe in it until I grew up and realized its the other way round. He should have written the quote this way - "When you know what you want the whole world conspires against you so that you never achieve it".
I don't know from where it went wrong. In fact not all things in life can be classified into black and white or right and wrong. So its not a question of what is right and what is wrong and unacceptable because these are very subjective terms, but it is a question of how much faith you have in your own decisions and how much you ready to fight for something you deeply believe in. Sometime, we think that someone very 'close' to us or we just hope that this person is really close to us just the way we am close to them. But in reality it's not that simple. We need that person so desperately... but we know we can't have them. Sooner or later, we realize that it's pointless trying to mend things but not before we're left broken. All the planning is washed away when it comes to making that 'untouchable' person a reality for ourself, simply because that person is a million miles away. That person is meant to be "Untouchable" for us. I dream about her and want her to say they she wants to be with me but in reality, she won't.
Everyone knows about the story behind this song. And I am not the one researching that topic anymore. So nothing except this beautiful song takes space on my blog!!! Untouchable is wanting someone you cannot have. For me, it reminds me of wanting someone that I always wanted in my life, but when it came to showing how much I wanted, I failed miserably and that's the reason of why that person became untouchable for me now.
Untouchable
Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you
Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close, I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven
It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'd be here anyway
But you're untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh
In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven
I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh
But your untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh
In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, come on
In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven
And in the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, oh, oh, oh
They're spelling out your name, oh
"No matter what happens in life, be good to people. Being good to people is a wonderful legacy to leave behind." - Taylor Swift
People say that once you hit rock bottom, things can only get better. But sometimes you never hit rock bottom. Sometimes life’s the rabbit hole and we have no idea of how deep the rabbit hole goes and we just keep on falling. No time to slow down, no thought of turning around, nothing to stop you. You just fall forever.
'Follow the dream' doesn't mean 'leave the love'. Roam if you must, but come back when you've seen enough. I've seen enough and I want to go back now.
There's no such thing as a grown up. We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and from our own, but the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us. We get bigger, we get taller, we get older, but for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids running around the playground trying desperately to fit in. - Grey's Anatomy
The most difficult phase of your life is not when no one understands you. It's when people, who matter the most in your lyf, don't even try to understand you. You can blame me for not trying. I’ve seen enough years, but the only season I have witnessed is the season of loneliness. I want to believe that I am not alone. But the realization of you being "Untouchable" shatters all my hopes. I don't know what is this stupid phase of lyf. The only thing getting me through all these seasons is the false hopes and my wishful dreams.
"I hate being in this position. I’m forcing myself to let go of the one person I need in my life. You’re the only thing that makes sense, but at the same time, the one thing that complicates me. I know that I’m better off without you, but I feel empty whenever I try to let go."
